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Post by wolfgang on Sept 20, 2009 15:30:21 GMT -5
I am not usually one to write. My heads been so cluttered lately and with no one really to talk to around town, i picked up one of these notebooks from the store.
Theres been allot on my mind. TOO much lately. honestly i think i will go insane one of these days.
The pack is gutted. dead. Its not really a group of wolves anymore. just people running around aimlessly. Not that i felt like i belonged much, but ever since chelle or sarah or whatever her name is these days disappeared things have gone down hill
I have feeling some one new will try and take over the pack if no one else does anything. chelles been running around on her own lately, not that i care what she does, shes her own person.
I don't have to deal with Tristan on my ass anymore. but with the lack of a pack and any sort of goals , i am starting to miss his emo ass.
Seems really the only one i can turn to is megeara. I think, and worry about her constantly. I cant say how she will turn out , but I'm there for her always. Shes really the one person in town that matters to me the most.
I love her.
I have a job working the bar seems its all i do nowadays. I like it since i can see others in town, but it seems thats it. Everyone is in their own little groups , I'm just the bartender. i guess lately that's why i've been drinking more than i have before.
I told gage about somethings. Still not sure about why or if i should have. but seemed like a good idea. I hope this doesn't blow up in my face as usual.
Kiki seems nice.she helps at work when i don't feel like going in.though sometimes i feel like shes hiding something. i dunno maybe I'm getting paranoid again. Its that shes so super happy..i dunno how she does it..
Tarnek ...yea..hes ..somewhat of a grumpy old man lately. Seems hes taken an interest in jas( what man wouldn't?). Lately hes been trying to help her. Whether its genuine or not i cant tell, but if he fucks with her,,i wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't skewer him.
that's if hikaru or jaysen doesn't get to him first.
Also Tarnek seems not to like vampires. Did i sound as bad as he did when i first came to town?.
Speaking of vampires, met a new one. Her names Saleana, she seems nice if a bit out of place. Maybe megeara would like to meet her, maybe make a friend .
I would hope so, Mea seems alone like me.
Got put through window a night or so back. That kid , Isaac, is really running amok. Heard he got arrested for attacking "Occifer "Sydney. Heh,, not bad for his first offense i guess. I hope they don't hurt him badly. Isaac's got a good heart, just needs to use his brain.
Hikaru seems to have come into his own, i count him as a friend, but i m not sure if i should confide in him..he seems too attached to Ayd anyhow.
Maybe Tavian the doctor would listen to me. Maybe...if he ever stayed in one place longer than five seconds. Hes a good doctor, though apparently he runs his own company. Lucky guy..must be loaded...
Sometimes I miss the old days. I miss some friends who have left town for one reason or another. I hope they're ok and still alive...
Anyhow i guess that's enough for now..i gotta go to work...
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Post by wolfgang on Oct 1, 2009 2:11:02 GMT -5
Well I guess should start by saying whats foremost on my mind. My beloved , Megeara is back. She came back a few nights ago, she surprised me when she did, i was sitting on her couch in her room , when she popped out of the shadows and wrapped her arms around me,
I was very surprised. I didn't smell or hear her enter. but i guess that gets me to my next point.
Apparently she had went away for some help and some how she came back different. She was stronger somehow. not as..timid and uncertain. I cant put my finger on it exactly, i wont dare guess right now. but i will find out.For now I'm glad shes back, i was losing my mind with her away. I was so afraid id lose her. I love her so much , shes my world
I mean that.she is. I really have no reason for being except her. Shes made me happier than Ive ever been, shes changed my life.In more ways than one. and thats not saying anything about her being a vampire.
I really cant say what my life would be without her. I mean i have no purpose save her really. I work almost every day. I talk to those that come in and what not but thats it. no real connections really.
Other than the little wolf Mitzy, shes very new to being wolf. Ive taken a like to her As a friend. Ive taken it upon myself to teach and help her learn seeing as there no pack or any semblance of one. or will be soon.
Mitzy's really nice , shes very smart, she is fun to talk to even when i have a the small amounts of time off work with her. I hope one day i can get her to meet mea. I'm sure they'd like one another.
For now though ill just make sure she doesn't get hurt or in trouble. poor girl has it hard as it is adjusting.
Which i think brings me to the third thing that happened these past days. I saw Sarah/chelle. First time id seen her by herself an not flanked by someone else.
She was talking to some other shifter. He was somewhat tall, red curly hair. The guy looked like the offspring of carrot top and Fabio, if you can imagine that. I don't think hes from America, he certainly doesn't understand customs.
Anyhow like I was saying, chelle was talking to this guy, apparently who was looking for jade. I was also semi drunk..mea being gone still at this time, though i heard most of it. I certainly don't like him , he didnt have any manners. As for chelle she hugged me , which was welcome, thats the first actual positive thing another pack remember has done to me in a while.
Unfortunately , i didn't get to see exactly where chelle had been, because that little upstart Foxx literally ran over an d tackled chelle right there.Chelle flipped and straddled him then got off quickly. Foxx without missing a beat started off with his mouth. I of course cant stand the little snot and being half drunk , i really didn't care for it.granted i am not freki anymore, but i had half a mind to slap him sideways.
Anyhow after the collision of the two, chelle left saying she was tired, which honestly i can believe seeing as she runs around alot lately doing whatever she does. She left me with the redheaded guy and foxx who than asked if i wanted to spend the night with him. Yeah, that didn't seem like a good idea, so i told him to have fun with his friend and walked off.
I slept not so great. In a tree again*groan*
Lately I'm feeling caged in, i cant explain it. Ive been having dreams of things Ive thought put behind me. I guess its stress or maybe my beast is trying to tell me something. Who knows. I cant tell anyone, no one wants to listen to me anyhow. Mitzy wants to be a friend and open an ear which I'm grateful for, but i doubt the kid wants to hear my burdens when she has her own.
I Hope soon i can get time alone with my love, to truly express hoe i feel. I feel she too feels trapped, between me and..soemthing else entirely. I haven't pressed the issue, nor will i till she decides. I would never want to make her uncomfortable.But theres no one i would rather confess my life e to , than her...besides who's gonna listen ? Hikaru..yea right..we ain't that close ..
Maybe i could talk to jaysen he seems like good guy. Though i dunno the guy has a bad memory apparently. or he chooses to forget .either way not good .
I gotta find some sort of sanity. I cant keep this stuff bottled up. There isn't enough beer unfortunately..
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Post by wolfgang on Oct 2, 2009 22:44:57 GMT -5
I forgot to mention a few things. I guess i will start with last night. It was supposed to be some leather themed party, everyone was invited. Megeara insisted we go , so i did, wanting to share a night with her and also to get her out and about a bit more. Sometimes i worry she stays cooped up too much, even for a vampire.
Anyhow, when we got to the bar, there was few already there. jas, tavian, and a few others was dancing. Tarnek was there to, seemed he had just come in. Megeara saw him and snuck up on him. She kissed his cheek ,which didn't really bother me,seeing as he had helped her so he had earned it and besides who am i to tell Mea what she cant do?
Anyhow , we started to dance together.slowly mind you, Megeara likes the slower more intimate dances. i don't blame her, I've got two left feet and try as i might i cannot , how do the kids say it?, "get jiggy with it?".
We Had a fun time just dancing. I missed being close to her. its been a long week without her and well i just took the time to slow down and just enjoy her company, her touch, her scent, just..her all together. We spoke of a few things, just small talk, i really did not want to say too much
Then she wanted drink , which being bartender, i was happy to oblige. But to my surprise guess who i should see at the bar?.
Iszac. yep that's right, the one who put me through a window. Dunno when he got back but i saw he had his eye on that artist girl, Emma, i heard was her name. (will have to quite calling her the girl that draws stuff now)
I made Megeara a blum..you know a blood and rum..yea jas loves those little names for her vampire drinks.. I was about to sit when Mitzy walked in .i was surprised since mitz is a very quiet girl who doesn't like crowds. But she was dressed nicely , Megeara even complimented her on it. The two started talking and got to know one another bit. Megeara even thanks mitzy for watching out for me.( yea i know , i do need someone to i guess) But then Megeara's phone rang and she had to leave
Which definitely killed the mood for me. I was hoping shed stay and chat and dance some more. but she said the call was important and had to be taken. I wonder who the hell it was.
Anyhow since no one else was ordering drinks and a few like tarnek had already left , i walked out and just wandered the streets. The bar can get suffocating at times, and this was definitely one of those times. Mitzy must've followed me cause she stopped and gave me a hug as i walked then she said good night. I hugged her back ,and told her goodnight, then went on my way through town.
I came upon the big tree in the center of town and tarnek i saw was chatting with Samanya.,who was swinging.I said hi and started talking . Apparently , Sam did something bad but cant remember. I think i know what she did and who she did it to, but i didn't let on, i wanna be sure before go running off at the mouth.
Also Tarnek kinda explained why he was stressed.I say kinda cause he didn't really give details beyond the fact he was having trouble with his past. Boy, that's the understatement of the year. I think everyone does or is around here. I feel bad for the guy, i mean the whole thing with Dee.I know they loved one another and that verdict was definitely too harsh.
Looking back on it, i can tell you i feel bad , i would've done differently. I just at the time, didn't feel like having jade on my case. what with the things with Megeara and also the fact jade also partly blamed me for Sarah leaving. Yea i still cant get my mind around that one.Maybe shes right , But to me , i did the right thing and stand up for things i perceive right, not just the packs way of thinking.
Ive been in 4 packs now...through the last couple years.Ive learned a few things. One of them is to trust my own instincts and judgment.Even over the pack.Yes i know that sounds like blasphemy but I've been kicked out and hunted by too many power hungry ulfrics to trust just any body who thinks they cant just push me around. Honestly i think that's why i never bothered to be one, that and I'm happy where I'm at so long as i have megeara at my side.
Anyhow i got sidetracked. Like i was saying Tarnek was telling me about what he was going through. Heck he even re apologized for blaming me for the Dee banishment,saying i did right for looking out for my own.He's right, i was .protecting me and Megeara. I have no doubt would do anything , ANYTHING, to keep things safe for Megeara. Though I do feel bad for Dee.
Tarnek Made a comment that he felt that most the others who were at or in power kinda underestimated and over looked him. I joked saying maybe all us mediocre should stick together and support one another. Yes i know more blasphemy, but it was joke.
Least I was joking.dunno how Tarnek took it.seems he liked it.
While we were talking I'm guessing Samanya zoned out cause next thing i know, i feel this wave of calming energy coming from her. I didn't mind it.It felt really good actually.But for some reason, it really set Tarnek off. He asked her to stop but she didn't hear him i guess. he had to push her out of her swing to get her to respond.I was shocked as she kinda hit the ground like flat on her face. I ran to help but she was ok.
She seemed irked at Tarnek after that. Don't blame her. but i guess Tarnek just couldn't take what she was sending out.
After that I said good night and headed out , I was tired after that.I know i didn't do much but i was really tired.Dunno maybe Its my beast or something...
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Post by wolfgang on Oct 15, 2009 21:41:27 GMT -5
So yea. It's been a week or so since my last entry. Lots has happened since then. hmm?..Where to start..Well Lets start from my favorite and go to least favorite..
Megeara has been back for awhile since her trip to the other vampire coven. She seems different. Least shes not as shy as she used to be. Most the time shes alright , though two nights ago , I found her hurt , and it need of blood. Apparently , those people she was sent to learn from gave her a silver weapon, which s he had cut herself with. On top of that, she was hungry, and very confused. When i found her , i was with Mitzy who was at the time weird, and Eric , who is one of the would be detectives in town. He was so surprised by the sight of Mea , he almost put silver bullets in her. Thankfully,, I was there , so that didn't happen. I ended up taking her to the clinic where they patched her up pretty good. Hikaru stopped by for a few words and to help
I really gotta hand it to him, he's a pretty good guy. Anyhow I slept that night mostly outside
Mitzy, Shes been acting weird lately , but not of her own wishes it seems. She accidentally got bewitched by some Fae or what not. Basically he makes people like him. That in itself is wrong..I mean what kind of person Makes you like them?. Underhanded if you ask me. I'll definitely keep my eye on that guy . When we finally got Mitzy out of his spell, she was upset. I kinda feel bad for her, she didn't even know what the guys name was. Makes me just want to punch the guy till i feel better. Anyhow we got mitz home later that night,
Spoke to Ezauradin , who was not to pleased to hear what happened to mitz. I guess he felt the same way. Apparently its against some law his kind has as well, so i guess that guys in deep shit. Serves him right ,i say.
Any how , if you think thats bad, heres what happened last night.
There's some body or some group of bodies running around hunting Willow, apparently they took her for some unknown reason. It gets worse, shes Tristan's girl. Ha, of all people i would've never guessed they'd be together...a faun and a wolf. Well those will be some weird looking kids I'm sure
Oh and its gets better..yes that's right..Now there's some new ulfric around . and guess what..yes you got it..he and chelle and nikul..for whatever reason..caught me and mitz trying to help Tristan.
Yes I know , me and Tristan haven't had the best of.relationships. We don't see eye to eye. But i do agree that if my l Obed one was captured , you bet i d be looking and finding whoever took her regardless of the red tape and bullshit i had to plow through.
Now here's where it gets really shitty for yours truly.Since chelle or was ulfric at the time, and Tristan is lower on the pole now( i found that out after wards) it was chelles responsibility not Tristan's to call for a hunt. To make matters worse , that walking corpse , Nikul had to stick his nose where it didn't belong., starting to quote human laws and my responsibilities. Who the fuck does he think he is. I take orders from select few and hes not one of them , and besides, i m sure if it was his vampire buddies getting the shaft, he would've been ok with searching. But anyhow , this new ulfric , Aiden was with Nikola , who by the way i didn't know chelle had lined up for ulfric, i just thought he was another asshole.
Well now thanks to Chelle, hes Ulfric Asshole. ha..i made a funny.
Oh and it gets better. Now since hes in power, everyone there had to kiss ass to join him. Of c course i did it, though honestly my heart wasn't in it. I mean what kind of fool respects some guy they pull out of a hat. If he wants my respect he has to really show hes not like all the other assholes in power .
I highly doubt he will. Anyhow , one good thing came out of this. Mitzy joined the pack. I know its not something hes wanted but at least now she can have others around who will help watch out for her and support her like she needs . I can only hope thing between me and this ulfric don't affect her. She deserves to have a fair shot .
I have a feeling me and this ulfric aren't gonna see eye to eye , and on multiple levels. its gonna make me and Tristan's squabble look like a warm up. Just got to get my point across carefully. I have no problems with the rest of the pack. granted yes Virgil pissed on my leg...the little bastard. I'll get him back one day..
Oh i almost forgot, there is a new visitor in town..Hes 7 ft tall, black, ugly, and has many horns and tails..and apparently he likes Jas..or at least ..he likes throwing jas into walls. I have to say seeing her shift into her alpha form was very impressive. I wonder when i get one of those...? Anyhow , this demon means business. she couldn't even get free, from his grasp and he seemed to feed off her anger.
I guess it is true.. jas is cursed...oh well i guess i am too..cant seem to get a break..
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Post by wolfgang on Oct 25, 2009 0:22:49 GMT -5
Well its official , things have indeed gotten worse.
How? you say? Well lately things have gotten weirder. Not only did a dragon level an entire building , one was sprouted up in its place almost the very same day.Now i don't know about you but i would call that quite a fast cover up if you ask me.
Also seems Sam is the latest victim to this latest draconic assault , seems she and a few others had been hurt.
Though here's where it gets weird, apparently someone had help ed Sam and whoever she was with.
I come to find out a day or so later that Lilliana is back in town. Which is ,for once, a good thing. I am happy to see her around , though I am not sure what role she will pay as last time i remember she was or used to be a nimir ra..but anyhow It did bring a smile to my face ..( i know those are few and far between these days)
Anyhow to make things worse( again) Emma was attacked or so she says by dale. We , and by we i mean me and eric went looking for them after he left with her, carrying her body ala suspicious like through town. When i followed i had lost them, but that damn eric..he kept on it..(granted he almost got creamed in the face for sneaking up on me) but he did find her. Albeit , she had a heart shaped cut on her chest , she was for the most part in one piece.
Now i k now what you're thinking. Big detective find s girl. girl is saved . Happy ending . Right? Well you'd be WRONG!
You see not only does she not want to go to the hospital, she takes off running like a bat outta hell, bleeding everywhere i might add, through town looking for Nikul.
Now before you say it . Lemme stop you. It gets worse. Yours truly has to track her down and find her because the detective wants her safe. Granted I am no slouch when it comes to running , but I draw the line at brutal marathons through traffic !
I almost if not for my uncanny were like reflexes(gotta love those!) became a furry ball pancake on the side walk thanks to Emma. I finally caught her scrawny ass by the bridge , and she wasn't too pleased. I didn't wanna hurt her , i just wanted to take her to the freakin hospital! But i guess most girls in this town are out of the gourd, they must be. She put up a fight but being only human , she gave up and i carried her through town to the hospital.
I let the docs and nurses handle her ass when i got her in. I left soon after they came out to tell me she was patched up.
I did all that just cause I was told to, and not a single thank you. Now i know how superheroes feel. I mean if i were anyone else i would've just let her run off.
Now part of me thinks that i am gonna hear a earful from Mr Condom himself , about not letting her go and bleed to death to tell him whatever it was .
Sigh. Well I hope she does neglect to tell him , I at least took her to get healed. I can only hope. I really, and i mean really , don't have patience for a stand off with Nikul..
besides I am still waiting to see what happens with this new ulfric ,. Part of me wants to believe hes gonna be good but that part is quickly beaten to a pulp but the rest of me which is logic , reason, and everything i know about ulfrics.
On the less dark side, I heard hikaru and ayd are now the vampires in power. or V.I.P's as i call them. Not sure how i feel about that. Lot of mixed feelings there.
Speaking of vampires. My favorite vampire , Megeara , shes gone . Again. Haven't seen her in days. I can only hope for the best.
Oh Jas and jaysen are getting hitched. I am sure knowing them they'll throw a party or something. I really hope it works out for them , they deserve it.
I am sure more things are bound to happen. Wish Megeara was around, I sure miss her..
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Post by wolfgang on Oct 31, 2009 0:52:13 GMT -5
Its getting colder.
I saw Mitzy today , first time in awhile. she looked happy. I was glad to see she was still around. Bumped into Tarnek. I threw a snowball at him, try and get him to lighten up. Apparantly hes got some thing agianst thecold. he dodged it like the snowball was death itself.
It seems now the festival is over. theres no sign of it anywhere. And with it it seems that things have died down..quite literally.
I spoke to Jaslene about my frustrations about the pack. She told me there's a way to leave the pack peacefully. At first i ddint really think about it. though right now I am really considering it.
Not like there's much of a pack presence anyhow. Might as well just leave and let them deal with there own dysfunctions.
Megeara's still gone. I havent hearda word from her. Im worried. This isn't like her. I hope she is alright.I love her. I wish I knew where she was.,
It saddens me to think shes lost some where out there. I do hope it is not the case..
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Post by wolfgang on Nov 10, 2009 21:36:57 GMT -5
well here i am , back writing again. been a while since last.
cant really blame me though woodbourne is officially Bizarro land now
Found Megeara, she was suffering from delusions apparently from her oath or bond with Ra. At least thats what hikaru said, i will take his word for it since i do not have another explanation for it.
But the important things is. Shes safe. Shes home. Shes with me. and bottom line I still intend to marry her. just need to find a good spot, a time and a ring to propose..still working on that.
Things around here are getting a bit easier if not a bit more complicated. yes i know that didn't make sense but this is Bizarro land.
.I went to the bar the other night to work. went well. right up to the point , the tigers all gathered there. Then tarnek and jas started to have a discussion. which then Sam entered. oddly yours truly , was in the middle. I did the only sensible thing. I shut up , and listened.
Anyhow according to Jaslene, they're arguing over some alliance with Aydryan and Hikaru.
Now , to me, not a bad idea..i mean..hik/ayd are the two strongest in town since Ra went out into the world. And Jas and her tiger clan are the strongest group , right now since the wolves are still splintered( more on that later.) So i can see where the attraction is for jas. I just haven't figured out what is keeping tarnek and Sam from jumping on. I get the feeling it has something to do with vampires..i could be wrong..
Also while this has been going on, Mitzy has returned. In one piece , thank goodness. Though i can not say the same for her mental state as she seems withdrawn more than ever. Nikul is taking charge of her, which honestly i am suspicious of. but hey he seems to be able to handle it so why not.
I just hope he knows what hes doing. Mitzy shifted and well let me tell you..it wasn't as Nikul said it would be. Sure..she healed.right into being a rabid hellhound..definitely not what Nikul said..definitely not.
Eric doesn't trust nikul. Now i for one don't despise Nikul. I just cant trust his motives and the fact he has pretty much all the power over us wolves he could ever want . and if he wanted to use it, i doubt m any would stop him. He says Aden left him in charge..i think that's a bit suspicious for a guy who just got elected ulfric to just up and vanish..Nikul said hes in Greece..I don't know if i truly believe their relationship is as simple as i have heard
Spoke to Hilary , what he said got me thinking about stuff. made me re think somethings. I dunno , seems to be too complicated to just simplify it like he said . Then again, I am doing my best here. I just want to be happy, and Megeara to be happy. Though something tells me when Aiden gets back from where ever he is, things aren't gonna be pretty.
I dunno , maybe Hikaru's right. Maybe i should just be a good soldier and fall in line....But then again,, i have done that..and look where that got me..
I've been following people most my life since I met Xeandra, ever since she took me in and told me what i was. Taught me what to do. She was the one who got me my first pack..She took care of me, all those times she got me out of trouble..and sometimes into trouble..but I didn't mind..
Besides her, the only other shifter that really showed me what to do , was Tsiani, the only Ulfric i Ever respected. Not cause , she was superior. but She Earned it..she fought for me, she made me feel like family, hell , if it weren't for her, Kraven would've driven me out or had me killed..
Honestly I can say I am tired of just being led around. I am tired of people telling me to do things as if i have no choice. There's Always a choice
I remember Tsi telling me , that night ..Power is to be respected, but only if that power is right other wise its just corruption..
Well honestly its hard to argue that considering what happened, but i have no clue where to apply the code she taught me here in woodbourne...
Seems everyone has there own set of rules now..
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Post by wolfgang on Jan 16, 2010 20:49:14 GMT -5
This is unbelievable!
I can barely write , I'm so excited.. Last night i went out for a walk aftera few drinks. Mea found me as i had the ring. I was so nervous. I could barely think. We went to the spot where we first met. Which was the bar. yea i know its corny.
Anyhow as we both stood there remembering old times, she asked if i regretted being with her..
And thats when i popped the question..ai dropped to my knees and asked!!
And guess what?!
She said yes...
Oh my , Imm so happy.I dunno what tot think..I have so much work to do..so many to tell.. not sure who to tell first..
i gotta go ..my head is spinning.. I needa drink..
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