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Post by isabella on Feb 19, 2010 6:44:39 GMT -5
when she got to her hotel room door.. she pulled the key from her back pocket and unlocked the door.. she moved slowly as she kicked off her boots at random directions as she head to the side of the bed.. she looked down and opend her hand looked at the cross in her hand.. she sighed deeply as brought it up to her neck and hooked it back in place..as her hand trails down the the chain to cross she falls to her knees grabbing the cross pendant tightly with her good hand.. tears swelled in her eyes she leaned her head back and spoke with a cracking voice " please.. please let me have enough stregnth to do this case.. youve kept me alive this long.. and youve always been there for me.. please dont abandon me now...........i need your guidance Father, I abandon myself into your hands; do with me what you will. Whatever you may do, I thank you: I am ready for all, I accept all. Let only your will be done in me, and in all Your creatures - I wish no more than this, O Lord. Into your hands I commend my soul; I offer it to you with all the love of my heart, for I love you Lord, and so need to give myself, to surrender myself into your hands, without reserve, and with boundless confidence, For you are my Father. .. charles de foucauld " she whispered the name as he was the one who had wrote her favorite prayer.. with a sigh she she lowered her head and lifted herself from the floor and walked to the window.. she moved aside the curtain and looked upon the dawning sky "i will do what i can to protect who i can.. while i am on this earth.. i will do all what i could not do for becca" the tears broke away from her eyes and ran down her face.. she angerly shoved the curtain closed and hoped into her unmade bed and curled her body underneath the covers.. her mind raced through the nights events.. she knew no one wanted her here .. hell she only came to visit G'G for a few days.. now she regrettted ever coming her.. he didnt know her anymore.. and she didnt know him.. she should have let it go.. as her eyes grew heavy and her breathing began to shallow her last coherant thought was hikarus voice echoing in her head " your a murderer" and then she drifted off to dreamless sleep
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Post by isabella on Mar 20, 2010 18:01:40 GMT -5
Isabella Bouvier tiptoed down the stairs from her bedroom to the main floor of the house. She pushed the door open slowly as she peaked through seeing that Christopher was still asleep on her couch. She then pushed the door open wider then very slowly walked to the book shelf on the far wall and grabbed her journal she had hidden among the rows of books.. she moved quickly back up the stairs shutting the door softly behind her.. Once upstairs she ran back to her bed and jumped back into the spot she had been sitting in just moments ago.. She reached down and grabbed the blanket and brought it up to her wasted as she leaned against the head board with her journal propped on her lap.She opens the journal carefully and flips it to a blank page..she pulls the pen out of the binding and begins to write
<< So much has happened since I came to this town, too much.. I don't know how these people manage when at every turn there's a body or a fight.. Someone Hunting another or a lover's quarrel.. It seems calmer to me in the city because you expect chaos.. But in such a small town you would think it quite, and serene.. I find it quite the opposite, This town has more chaos in it then I ever experience in the city.. Perhaps its because it's such a small town and Everyones business surfaces rather in the city theres seclusion and everyone keeps to themselves.. I miss home and California.. I miss my mamma and the home I have there.. That is where my I belong.. or that is what I thought until a few days ago.. The murders of those people haunt my sleep and keep me from finding any peace. We know that it could be a possibility of two vampires but I'm not sure.. I am going based on the word of the masters of the city.. And I am not sure if I genuinely believe and trust them or is my emotions clouding my judgment.. Risking my badge to protect these people from our government, withholding key information that might be of use to the investigation.. I know this information and plan on finding more but in order to protect them I must keep it to myself.. as the days continue and as the bodies begin to pile higher.. I am getting pulled closer to those very beings it is my job to kill.. I am conflicted.. I know that when the time comes and the person responsible is found.. Once the warrant for execution is processed, I will kill them.. I just pray that my soul isn't lost when I do.>>
Isabella sighs as she closes her journal and places it beside her on the bed. She then scoots down and brings her blanket up to her shoulders and nestle herself further into the pillows. She closes her eyes as her mind continues to wander to the latest body found in the pond, the boy that is now residing with her in her home and of the masters of the city.. She squeezes her eyes tighter urging the images to leave her mind .. hoping that she could find sleep..
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Post by isabella on Mar 21, 2010 6:31:42 GMT -5
Isabella Bouvier clicked off her phone after she had made the arangements for her flight and shifted in her bed.. Her eyes fell on her journal that was hidden partially underneath the covers.. she picked it up slowly and opened it to a blank page.. she grabbed the pen with a sigh and began to write.. already knowing what she was going to do with the journal.
<< Hikaru-
There arent enough words to express how terrible sorry I am for what happend.. And I find that there arent enough words in this world to express to you how I truely feel.. For what happend.. I .. I panicked from the images that you had given me as well as the feelings of love and being wanted.. I knew it was a lie and i .. couldnt handle it.. for you see Hikaru.. I became to emotional involve with you.. and the dream was only partially a lie.. The lie was that the feelings were returned.. I am sorry that I hurt you.. I never expected any of what happend to have occured.. but it is too late now.. I pray that one day that god will forgive me for my transgretions against you.. and I pray that one day you might as well.. Please believe that I wished for something different, and I never intended on things going as far as they have.. but this is present and I can only.. move forward and take the consiquences as they come.. By The time you read this Ill will be long gone.. so I say this.. Farewell.. Ill never forget you
Love, Isabella>>
she sighed as she closed the journal and began packing her things.. Her flight leaves in two hours and she still had yet to call a cab
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