Jaysen
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 15:17:08 GMT -5
Well I made it.
Wood Bourne N.Y.
What a difference. Have to look into something to do with myself, the Sanctuary looks promising, the bar has a STAGE!. The owner is probably one of the most stunning women I’ve ever seen and she’s not alone. What the fuck is in the water here??!
I have to see if they are hiring next chance I get. Still getting the apartment set up, not that there was much to set up. How did they find this place? I don’t think I’ve ever lived in a better spot. And who has a place like this only to take off for a year? More then enough time to find a permanent place. I think I’m going like it here.
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 15:17:59 GMT -5
I’m Hired! And I fucking fall asleep on stage!?
My Fucking god ! The night was a blast! I worked the stage like a maniac….that is probably why I fucking pass out during my break. FUCKING DUFFUS!
Thank goodness the Boss Lady is as awesome as she looks or I’d be looking for another job. I gotta crash now before I fall over.
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 15:19:21 GMT -5
Did I dream it?
I know I went to work tonight, it was a blast like normal, the music, the eye candy….Him. Was he real? That hair like blood… Blood, no it has to be REAL I can feel the bite. It doesn’t hurt, my god it was like…sex?
Those eyes like a glowing turquoise sea stretching into forever. I never wanted to leave them. He was beautiful…a Vampire. I don’t even remember coming home…Why am I not terrified?
No, not terrified, not one damned bit. The insane thing is I want to see him again. Sometimes I wish I drank.
I’m going to dream about him again. Heaven help me I know I will. Why can’t I stop smiling?! I so need a shrink.
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Jaysen
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 16:06:13 GMT -5
What a way to wake up.
I had a gut feeling this would happen, it surpassed even my best wet dream. No that’s not right, it was a fantasy come to life. Thank you gods above or below for Jas’s idea of having a bed in the dressing room. I had needed a nap and I thought I locked the door. I guess I didn’t.
If I had died in his arms, I’d have gone happy. I’m insane. There isn’t anything else, and I don’t care. What a Vampire can see in a plain human is a mystery to me. His touch, my gods, I can still feel him. I am amazed I don’t tent myself the second I see him.
The world loves and hates me.
Aydryan works at the bar as a dancer…I am so dead….WHY AM I SMILING!?
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Jaysen
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 16:35:51 GMT -5
I am concerned….
First, I am NEVER drinking again.
I don’t think I’m hung over but I have lost time. I remember going in to work, it was a pretty good night with eye candy galore and the music was awesome. I went home…wait I did forget my watch, I hate being without it. Yeah I came back to the bar.. Jas, Nikul, Hikaru and Jaded were all at the bar trying a drink Hikaru was making. They made a human version for Jaded and me. I can’t even remember what it tasted like.
Then…..what?
I think we, It can’t have happened…could it? Jaded…Jas.. My god if it wasn’t a dream! I can still feel it!
I can remember, a bed like something out of Hearst Castle, bodies writhing, MY body was one of them. Darkness, I’m underground walking on stone floors, Jas is there. She is leading me and, was it Jaded? We are walking and walking.
I woke up here in my room, I still don’t know how I got here. This is becoming a very bad habit…one that may get me killed.
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Jaysen
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 17:03:35 GMT -5
I am an idiot and Hikaru is a Vampire….that flies
I don’t know what to think anymore. I knew Wood Bourne was different but I mean FUCK. Am I trying to kill myself? All I wanted was a nice walk in the local woods. They are amazing, the falls take my breath away every time I see them. Who the fucking hell put a fifteen foot drop in the fucking woods? I could have died!
If Not for Hikaru.
Hikaru, I don’t think he’s going to let me forget I actually called him a Fang Face. I am a fucking idiot! Am I THAT blind that I never guessed before now? It’s always the quiet ones. He’s so quiet, Jas and Nikul seem to be bringing him out of his shell. I almost tripped on stage when I saw him smile for the first time. I barely know the guy and I was shocked. But then I seem to be bonding with people here faster than I thought possible.
It’s this place it has to be. It’s as if it’s not real, like I have entered a dream. Where Vampires are your coworkers, and they fly. I hope I never have to fly with him again. I fucking hate heights! I hate it! I want to go up to the Fae caverns, I think they call it that but climbing those damned stairs is terrifying.
The sick thing is, I’d not trade these people or this place for anything.
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 17:16:40 GMT -5
Ayane
That sums it all up. I am so goddamn charming. I did want her, but she deserves more than being another conquest. She’s unlike anyone I’ve ever been with. Hell NO ONE is anymore, not since I moved here.
But it happened so fast, Am I that much of a gigilo? She was like a daydream, I mean I knew she was fucking adorable but my god. I feel like I desecrated something holy. And then her tears. Did I hurt her somehow?
I’ll find out soon enough.
I am so fucked.
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 17:41:42 GMT -5
I am insane or stupid or the luckiest fucker in the world.
I slept with the boss. There! I said it, and I’d do it again. First Ayd, then Ayane…I can’t be this lucky.. I’m going to be hit by a bus I know it.
Jaslene Russlle, her name just roles off the tongue, and I work for her. She dances like Satan himself and her touch is deadly. And I go willingly to my slaughter, tiptoeing through the tulips on the way to Hell ..and loving it.
But gods help me if she touches me again on stage. I have no defenses against her. How is she able to do this to me? I feel like I’m on fire when she touches me, Ayd can do it too but he’s a Vampire. He has to have some sort of power to do that to me but Jas? My consolation is she wanted it as much as I did. I just can’t help thinking this may be a bad career move on my part.
Well off to bed and to another night on the job.
I am one lucky S.O.B.
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Post by Jaysen on Jul 31, 2009 18:36:13 GMT -5
Taking a day off is a bad idea. And I work for a cat.
OK one thing at a time.
I take a walk ..in town, what can go wrong with that? No holes to fall into, nice street lights making everything glow in that ethereal yellow that makes everything look like those old movies. It was a lovely night I was feeling great. Then I meet up with Jas. I’m still not sure where I stand with her. I know she and Hikaru are an item, or is it Nikul? Anyway she was just sitting there, up on that historic tree they show in the travel brochures, looking like a goddess in the lamp light..a pissed Goddess.
I swear drama by the name of Tristan will not leave her alone. That guy is a fool or suicidal. I tried to sooth Jas‘s savage beast…I cannot believe I just wrote this.
Well, I failed on my first attempt as she up and took a chunk out that old tree. I am surprised I didn’t shit myself. Points for me!
My heart felt like it was going to bust out of my chest but I didn’t run. It was still Jas, the woman who just the night before sent me into sensory overload, the woman, who despite my stupidity still looks out for me.
I have met a were wolf, a Vampire, no make that three, why not a were tiger?
After the shock wore off we had a nice walk before heading back for a nice diner. She made Burgers……I think I love her. The burger was the next best thing to sex, so I didn’t see the fight brewing five feet away from myself…why an I not dead yet?
Jordan, when he heals up, will hopefully be the wiser. Especially with Aurora’s assistant?
Aurora.. She scares me. I don’t know why but I am dead around her, I know it. She has to be a Vampire or something. But what? I hope she never notices me again and please I hope she never touches me.
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Post by Jaysen on Aug 2, 2009 16:29:53 GMT -5
I don't know what I'm doing here,
I think I'm going to ask Jas for some time off, maybe a few days. I need time to think. I wasn't like this, not before I came here. I mean, Jas, Ayane, Jaded, Aydryan...Oh god, who else? I wish Sensei were here, he had a way of just looking at me and he knew what I was up to...scratch that, I'd rather he didn't know.
I'm a dancer, sometimes stipper....I'm not a gigillo, at least I wasn't before. No, that's not right either, a gigillo doesn't give a shit about who he fucks. I do, and that's what's killing me.
The bright side is it seems some are moving on to better things. I can't help but be a touch jealous of Hikaru. He's taken to Ayd now and in a way it seems right. I feel for Jas, but she seems happier than before so I'm in the dark as to the reason. Jaded has become so much stronger it's amazing to see. She's going to do fine. Ayane, she is still a mystery to me.
Damnit! I may start drinking, I need something to shut my mind off, just for a while.
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Post by Jaysen on Aug 6, 2009 17:07:51 GMT -5
Tonight was a fucking blast! Club Vengeance is huge! The people are as wild as I've seen since I moved up here. Maybe a little too wild, I still don't know what happened to my shirt. The looks I got walking to Sanctuary were priceless!!! Who knew fluorescent pink lipstick would be so hard to wash off. And where did that shark bite of a smear on my back come from?? Jas had a giggle fest teasing me. I'm tempted to spike he Vodka with cat nip.
And then the other surprise...Jermy. I never expected to see him sitting there, munching on a burger, but then it's not hard to be surprised where he's concerned. I don't know how his folks managed to keep up. I swear he's actually a sprite or something..changling? Yeah that's it. Him and his mushrooms. The squirt has got talent, still alive after gathering those things from any wooded spot he finds. If tried that I'd be dead. He should hire himself out, he's better than any truffle hound.
Then there's Ayane. I still don't know how I feel about her. She is adorable and sexy as hell. But I can't be sure, something is different about her. Like how can she wear those skirts and not get arrested?
Hell no one in Wood Bourne is quite what they seem. Even Jas, her secret is safe with me. She seems so down lately, not all the time but, she's got something weighing on her.
I'm thinking about getting a side gig at a Club Yana I think it is. Jaded works there and is going to ask about hiring me on. I could use the work out and any $L's wouldn't be sneezed at. That would be a blast! That chick kicks so much ass.
OK Journal, lights out!
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Post by Jaysen on Aug 10, 2009 5:31:52 GMT -5
I did it…
I told her.
She is such a beautiful soul how can she not see it? I know she didn’t, I saw it in her eyes. I can’t stop thinking about her eyes. I saw her soul in them and it was beautiful. I can’t take all her pain away but I will do what I can, she is beyond worth it. I think she may believe me, I hope so, I feel like she did. I will be here for her if she wants me, that is all I can do, I hope it’s enough.
I don’t know where we will go from here, I hope I am with her. I love her but I can’t make her love me. I have to be prepared for the possibility she may never be mine. I know she and Hikaru are so close, I can’t stand up to that, I wont, it’s not my place.
Gods! I wish I was a jerk. ….I think I need a drink.
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Jaysen
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Post by Jaysen on Aug 10, 2009 5:40:59 GMT -5
(Being a romantic Jaysen jotted down the lyrics to an old song he heard will surfing the net) Savage Garden / Crash And Burn When you feel all alone And the world has turned its back on you Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold When darkness is upon your door And you feel that you can't take anymore Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone When you feel all alone And a loyal friend is hard to find You're caught in a one way street With the monsters in your head When hopes and dreams are far away and You feel like you can't face the day Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone Because there has always been heartache and pain And when it's over you'll breathe again You'll breathe again When you feel all alone And the world has turned its back on you Give me a moment please To tame your wild wild heart Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone [ url to the song:] www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uB4lT5CblA {video of lyrics} www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAHzrtckTCE
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Post by Jaysen on Aug 10, 2009 15:20:40 GMT -5
I had an amazing dream last night.
I was running through the woods, I think it was the woods near town. The moonlight light gave everything an edge of silver. I was laughing but it wasn’t laughter. I felt truly alive, more than I ever have. The foliage was like a blur as I ran faster and faster! I’d almost think I was flying. There were others there with me, they were all savoring the pure joy of being alive and a part of something so powerful, it nearly hurt. There were other emotions, but I couldn’t be sure. The one thing that was clear, Jas was there too, I never saw her, but I KNEW she was there.
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Post by Jaysen on Aug 14, 2009 15:47:31 GMT -5
I can’t believe I sang to Jas,
I never sing to anyone, well almost never. But it seemed right. I knew she was hurting, how I knew escapes me but I knew. I’ve never seen her that way before, or maybe I just never saw it, she is so good at hiding it. She cried herself out in my arms. I could have held her forever. I think she’s either very observant or can read my mind though. She knew to take it to the couch before my back could spasm. If not for the activity in the bar I’d have stayed there all night.
Jaded was missing, but has anyone thought she may just have decided to take some time to herself? I’ll try to bring that up with Jas tomorrow. I know she’s scared something may have happened, but Jaded seems the type that can take care of herself. In fact I’m sure of it. She watched over me from day one. I sorta feel like a four year old but I can always use someone watching my back, or was that backside. No dude you don’t think overmuch of yourself, not at all.
We got a possible new dancer though, her name is Sarah and damn if she can’t out class me any day! The gal is fierce! She said she worked Vegas, can’t imagine why she’d want to work a local tavern like ours but dayum! I hope Jas hires her on! We seem to be getting more and more new faces around here.
I need to write down those words for Jas, god I’m a sappy bastard!
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